- I’m part of an online gaming community (the same one AlienCG is a member of) and one of the guys there started a thread a couple of years ago asking people’s opinions about marriage. He revived it today and mentioned that he went through with it and proposed to his girlfriend. It makes me think though, would I recommend marriage to a friend? A good topic for a future post.
- As selfish as this sounds, I’ve been think about myself a lot lately. Specifically, how I define myself now and how I might define myself once I’ve moved out. It might sound silly to wait to change something about myself, but I can only imagine it’ll be easier once someone’s not as likely to criticize me about it. (And no, I’m not coming out of the closet.) I’ve been think a lot more about donating my time to some good causes. Primarily helping neighbors & such, but maybe something official too, like the community action program. We’ll see. I just need to get off my butt and do something. You might wonder why I can’t do that now, but I tried helping an elderly neighbor lady fix her lawnmower (not successfully, dangit) and got chewed out for “not pulling my weight” around the house. *sigh*
- I keep getting myself worked up and worried about my girls when I move out. I know I can’t protect them all the time, but I’m having a very hard time trusting that my stbx will make the right choices about whether or not to bring guys home. If I hadn’t mentioned it before, this is the stbx that brought home the guy she was cheating on me with…while I was still under the impression that we were going to stay married. She doesn’t contact that specific guy anymore, but that doesn’t mean she’ll choose better guys in the future. Yeah, I could start a custody battle and all that, but until my fears are founded in something more substantial, I don’t think I can justify dragging them through that. Which sucks because something more ‘substantial’ is also likely to be harmful to my girls. *sigh* again. I know for sure that my prayer life will need to get a lot better. I’ve already started planning my ‘speech’ to make sure she knows that the girls are more than welcome to stay with me whenever she might want to have someone over. I’m sure it’ll go over like a lead balloon, but I gotta say it.
- Last time my parents were down I talked to my dad quite a bit. He mentioned my mom was a little concerned about me being happy and possibly finding someone else to marry in the future. Some time later, he made a case for staying single. Ha! Without reading too much into what that might mean, coming from him, I thought it was kind of funny how much differently men and women think about these things. I’m glad my mom thinks it takes marriage for a guy to be happy with another woman.
- A little lighter-weight: I’m getting pretty psyched for the release of Halo: Reach. Coming on September 14th. I probably won’t be moved out by then, but hopefully shortly after. I played in the multiplayer beta test back in June. Fun stuff!
This is a screenshot of a piece of the campaign. Gorgeous!
- I could write an entire post about what I’m looking forward to in this game. Maybe I will some time. Or do a review after release. We’ll see.
- Sometimes I worry about how much I get myself hyped up for these games, but none of the Halo series has ever disappointed.
- Anther game I’m really, really looking forward to is Gears of War 3. Maybe even more than Halo: Reach. Gears is far more gruesome, but it’s hecka fun. Comes out next spring some time. In fact, as much of a Halo fan as I am, I think I like Gears more. But they’re both very fun in their own ways.
Yes, you guessed right. That monster is going to rip the guys arm off and kill him with it. Ewww…
Cool.
And that is one sick lookin turret.
- Both games are a lot of fun. Much more so because you can get online and play with friends. Either fighting other people together or going through the campaign together. My stbx doesn’t seem to qualify the people I hang with online as ‘friends’. Of course, I beg to differ. I’ve had a guy on my friends list for over 6 years now. Have never met face to face, and hardly play together really, but I’m looking forward to playing some new Halo & Gears with him soon.
- Makes my wonder some more. I’m not sure I’ve ever played online with the Alien. Hmmm... might have to correct that.
Have a good ‘un, y’all!
It is almost like you are waiting for your real life to begin and surely that is a hopeful and positive thing. Now seems like a perfect time to be thinking of yourself and trying to redefine your role in the world.
ReplyDeleteI agree with laura b! You should be thinking about yourself now, because you need to find your path. So good for you.
ReplyDeleteI have to tell you... I stayed in a bad situation for my kids. I think with hind sight that it was a poor choice, but then I might not be where I am now and I am happy here. I certainly understand the worries about your girls and what quality of life they will have. Even though my kids were grown, I still did not bring men to their home other than to meet them.
Not just for them, but for my own comfort. Some men did not understand that. Too bad. The one who did, was a keeper. Which is why I was the one who commuted.
I love Halo! As for the ew in Gears of War... very cool beans!
One last comment on parents and single. Both my dad and his mom would rather see us married but both are behaving and understanding. We will know when and if it is right and not going there until we do and maybe never. Its your life, you do as you feel comfortable and don't worry about anyone else. Not that you were. I think you may be right about what women feel. For me it's a tough issue about being right with God, but we've talked about it. ;-)
I seriously wish you the best of luck with the STBX situation. I can't imagine how difficult that must be for you with kids involved. She needs to realize that you're thinking of your kids and what's best for them. Some people can be so dense and selfish, though.
ReplyDeleteI brought only two men home to meet my kids, both of them I was involved with for a year or more. My ex, on the other hand, has had every one of his girlfriends (about 6 of them, so far) meet the kids. I don't much like it, but he's a good Dad overall, so I let it ride. Not everything is worth a battle.
ReplyDeleteThanks for the support everyone! It really does help to hear about other experiences.
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